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Sunday, September 02, 2007
Today marks ONE year of being away from home, in this new (not so new anymore) place.
wheeee~~~~~
Exactly a year ago I was in the same anxious-cum-aimless-possibly-bitter state. Came to this place which I got so fond of now and thought I would never ever survived. I thought I would rot away here. But here, I found so many things that were lacking, that were absent back in KL. I am happy here.
But then again, someone once said good things never last (really?). Finished my slavery year. Now am no longer a trainee. No longer able to pretend that I know nothing, get away with the remark "I dunno wor, I am a trainee ma". Now, I am a full fledge officer. Everything also must know. People up there will ask you why you don't know. They'll ask you why you didn't learn it during your training. Btw, they expect your one year meagre "training" (slavery is actually more accurate) to teach you how to run a stupid hospital. If that's the case, Hello, I'll be sitting at your place already lor..
Anyway, I am not that bitter yet. I might be tomorrow.
Because again, if you remember, exactly one year ago, I got my posting letter.
So this year, I got another posting letter. Since because you are supposedly to be adequately trained, you'll be shooed out of the training centre which is usually a civilised habitat to some to some funny, dodgy, wasteland. There, you are kinda on your own.
So... I got me letter (did I mention that?)
The adrenaline rush starts again. Everyone of my former classmates and new colleagues are killing their phone bills by calling Putrajaya, BPFK, JKN, friends, families, strangers, etc.. All that anxiety again. So deja vu.
So everyone got their posting. Well, most of them. Again, there is a new list of posting in the class email, updating everyone where everyone is.
As expected, I got Pahang agian. My third choice actually.
I'm glad it's Pahang rather than any other states since I am kinda familiar with this state plus I sorta know who's who.
The THING is....... Grrrrrrrr...........
like last year, I DON'T KNOW WHICH CORNERS OF PAHANG IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You'll hear rumours of where there is a critical need of staffs and all. And you get worried. Worried which place you'll get, how far away it is from life, accomodation, etc..
I really really really DETEST this stupid posting-kinda-thingy. Just because we are here and so happen to be smart enough to take up the chosen course that we are bounded to serve. Sometimes, I wish I am stupid-er. You don't care huh whether we are happy or not. You don't care huh that we are separated from our loved ones. You just don't care...
I could be more bitter tomorrow or the opposite.
Lord, help me to accept wherever I am going to go and let me remember how this place, ends.
I leave this place with a heavy heart definately.
To you, I never expected but I am happy =)
My dinner buddies, I will definately miss you guys. You guys are the reason why I grew fat!
My neighbours, it has been wonderful.
My now-roommates, you girls are the best!
My church bro & sis, I am truly blessed.
To those that I've been aquainted here, I wish I could have more time to know you better.
What awaits me tomorrow...
posted by Charis at 10:27:00 pm
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